Tired as Hell
11.06.07 (9:15 pm) [edit]Okay, so I haven't slept properly for the last nine weeks. In the last forty-two hours I've gotten about two hours of sleep. But I have to get everything done. I swear, I'm being over worked! Perhaps I just need to learn to manage my time a little better. Not taking the time to blog might be a start. Haha. No no, I feel this is a good stress reliever. I AM happy to say I was able to get a good meal under my belt. Had: meat loaf, green peas, mashed potatoes with gravy, and fried eggplant. Yum. Oh, had an ice-cream cone and smoothie too. A lot more than what I've usually been having these days. It's a little disappointing only being able to have one meal a day though. Lost weight too. Would be great, if I had time to shop for a more fitting attire. But yes, I'm going to have to find a way to get around having more meals a day. But that could mean less sleep. Hmmm... Sleep or eat? Haha, I'm so tired. My coughing has gotten a little worse as well. If you have any suggestions of how to get better (that doesn't involve buying meds, I'm broke at the moment) then please, inform me.
Scars
11.05.07 (8:04 pm) [edit]What are your opinions on scars? I would really like to know. Lately I've been really self-concious about my own scars. And personally, I get a little upset when people say "They're just scars, no big deal" because they are a big deal. Scars, in my opinion, are both physical and mental. I know that I always try to hide my scars whether because I'm just self conscious or because I'm tired of having to explain how I got them. I always avoid the mirror while I take a shower and I NEVER change with anyone else. But I guess if it weren't for these hideous scars I wouldn't be where I am today or the person I am today. So in a way, I suppose I'm grateful for them.
Klutz!
11.05.07 (3:53 pm) [edit]So today I was leaving Anderson Hall, just reading a text message my friend had sent me when I hear this voice calling out. And apparently it had been calling out for a while now. I look over my shoulder and it's Patrick trying to get my attention. Unfortunately I wasn't able to catch his warning quick enough. Next thing I knew I walked right into a giant pot, nearly knocking myself off balance. That'll teach me to read and walk. It was quite humorous. Yes, it was embarrassing as well, but I like to laugh at my clumsy misfortunes. I've come to accept it as a part of me. And it makes other people laugh. In a good way of course. There's nothing better than to help other's moods lift.
Where Did My Hours Go?
11.04.07 (12:43 am) [edit]Today has been pretty hectic. I went to Wallen Hall to work on a few things. Once I got there however, I decided I needed some food. So I went to Anderson Hall to eat at Bobbies. I decided to walk seeing how the buses don't go backwards and I would have had to taken a whole round trip just to get there. Well, I don't mind walking. In fact, I don't think it's far at all. However, judging from the looks people have given me at the mention of 'walk from Wallen to Anderson' they must think it's pretty far. Or far enough. But anyways, I get there and the second I open the door, I'm blinded by this light and have an annoying yelling in my ear. Apparently it was closed all day for a shooting of a movie. I remember thinking "What the hell?" Why not have a sign outside to inform the many starving people here! So I head on back to Wallen, or so I had thought. Ended up going in the wrong direction. Didn't notice till I nearly walked under a ladder. It had occurred to me then that i hadn't walked under a ladder going to Bobbies. Had to turn around and walk back. Once I got back to Wallen, I waited for the bus for about half an hour. Rode to Turner then walked to JO's for lunch. Got there to only find out it had JUST closed. Really ought to get a schedule of their crazy hours. Starving now, I walk down to Carletos. As I was walking there however, there was a taxi driver who was laying on his horn nice and loud for EVERYONE to hear. Well, being skittish by nature I try to walk as fast as I can away from the offending noise. Only to find out later I had PASSED Carletos and it's Mexican goodness. It was quite frustrating really. Had to turn around yet again. It's a wonder how I haven't gotten dizzy yet. But in the end I got my tacos. I had asked for Taco Salad, but hey, tacos are good too. AFTER my stomach was delightfully filled, I walked back to Turner and rode the bus BACK to Wallen, passing Anderson and Bobbies with a wrinkle of my nose, and just worked until five. I decided I needed a break and something to drink. So I headed back to Turner and decided to grab my CD player as well. I work better with music. Had no batteries though. So after I grabbed a smoothie, which was horrible due to a mix up of orders, I headed to Ex'Lebris to buy some batteries. Well, OF COURSE they were closed. Agitated with my luck by now, I had to walk to CVS to find THEY were closed too. About to give up by now. I walked (beat and tired) back to Turner and banged on a few doors begging for batteries. Luck finally showed me it's kind side. After I got the batteries I had wanted so badly, I headed back to Wallen and just worked until twelve at night. Hitched a ride back to Turner seeing as the busses don't ride that late. But yes, my day has been a week. Or so it felt.
Caffein
11.04.07 (12:10 am) [edit]Many people don't believe me when I say this. Caffein and other energy drinks have a reverse effect on me. If I drink (or eat) anything with caffein my head literally starts humming and feels slightly heavy. And you know the rest. I'll conk out for hours to come. Not only that, but there are many meds I can't take because of the reverse effect. And if I were to take something that makes everyone else sleepy, I end up not only wide awake, but deeply agitated. So much to the point I'll throw things at people and turn tables over. Not that I can help it of course. I think. At least I hope. But yeah, how do I stay awake without coffee?? ALL will power! I'm pretty practiced in the art of all nighters! 'Kids, do not try this at home!'
Asthma
11.03.07 (11:57 pm) [edit]I really hate asthma. I haven't had an attack since grade school. Then suddenly I start having them. So naturally I go to the doctors (waste of money) and they prescribed me to this special inhaler that isn't supposed to give me the 'jitters' like usual inhalers do. Well, it cost a good bit, about two hundred or so. What's the big deal? Probably the fact that I lost it. Only used it once... and then I lost it. I've looked everywhere for the dang thing. Nothing. Not only that, but I've been coughing a lot worse now. SO! I guess I'd better go find it. Or buy a new one. Which I seriously can't afford. Ahh, life is great. No really, it is.
Sleepless
11.03.07 (5:04 am) [edit]I've been stressed out lately with work, but then I'm sure everyone has. I believe this is the cause of my cold though, and raccoon eyes. Haven't been sleeping properly and to be honest I expected to sleep clear through the day, but instead I awoke around seven in the morning. Went to bed around two, so I got about five hours. Which is good, had I gotten sleep the night before and the one before that. No, I had really expected to wake up around three in the afternoon. I'm glad I woke up though, I suppose. Gives me time to work on a few things. So why am I blogging instead of working? Procrastinating. Great right? I swear, one of these days procrastination is going to be the death of me. Ahh, can't stop coughing. Perhaps the fact that I haven't eaten properly in weeks could have an effect on my immune system. It's been so hectic that I haven't had much time to eat. And when I do, I can only manage to go down to the sub shop that's right downstairs. I'll tell you now, after ten weeks of subs, you tend to get tired of them. No, let me rephrase that. You tend to get SICK of them. But alas, I have little time (or energy) to go anywhere else. BRING ON THE SUBS! (At least I'm getting my veggies).
What the Hell?
11.02.07 (9:28 am) [edit]So, in composition class we watched a thirty minute show called "30 DAYS". This particular episode was about a farm boy from Michigan who has very strong religious beliefs, so naturally he's against gay interactions. Well, he was required to go live in San Francisco with a gay roommate for thirty days. Really quite entertaining. But there was this particular part that really made my blood boil. Christianity is a tricky subject. There are so many people out there giving it such a bad name. In the show people were parading around with such malicious signs. Two seem to have really stuck, they read: "AIDS CURE GAYS" and "FAGS DIE GOD LAUGHS". Terrible, right? They were also yelling "You're going to hell!" over and over again. That's when I began to feel a little... pissed. They have no right to decide that for themselves. They ought to mind their own business and let God decide whether they go to hell or not. Harassing and saying such cruel things, you'd think they should worry about their own direction they're heading. Truthfully, I think they'd be more likely to end up in hell rather than gay people whose sin is for love. You should be you're own individual and worry about only yourself. When I saw this, I thought "You're no better than Hitler in a manner of speaking." And they're not. They dare call themselves Christians then turn around and say such hateful things? They were practically telling people to drop dead. Now, I may not be well informed on the matter of Christianity, so I probably SHOULD just keep my nose out of the matter, but I wanted to share my anger. Also, personally, I wouldn't want to be under authority of such a God that they apparently have a view of. And tell me that's not right! No one should be able to say such things or make such assumptions! You sit there and wonder 'Who the hell made you God?" But yes, they have no right to call themselves Christians. Especially when they drag their four year olds to help hold up the signs! The poor kids aren't even old enough to formulate their own opinions! They're being corrupted by the idea before they can even properly think for themselves. Well, they'll be lucky if they escape the same fate as their guardians. That's all I have to say on the manner. Been wanting to get that off my chest.
Finally
11.02.07 (8:32 am) [edit]Ahh.. Been wanting to blog for a while now. I finally took the time to start one. I'll be blogging about little things I want to express my opinions on, or share my feelings about my day's happenings. Or if I ever need to vent in a more productive manner rather than punching holes in walls, then here I shall. If I ever strike a nerve or you simply just want to comment for the hell of it, then by all means do so. I welcome comments and opinions. If perhaps you want to know me a little better, then tell me or even go ahead and e-mail me at NoOneAnonymous@yahoo.com. So yeah, that'll conclude my first blog. I feel introductions are important, even if I'm not formally introducing myself.